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Jul. 10th, 2012 09:36 pmI swear it happens in slow-motion and yet so fast that it's far too late to do anything about it. The pain is immediate, sharp and bright-hot and biting, and I pull back from the machine, clutching by hand to my chest like holding it tighter will make it stop.
Funny thing is, it's actually not the worst I've ever felt. Not by a long shot. No, that honor goes to the Capitol and their fucking electric wands or whatever the hell they are. This is nothing, really.
Except for the blood. There really is a lot of blood.
And with that comes a whole lot of memories I spend most of my time trying to forget. Forcing every grizzly image out of my mind, I pull my shirt off and wrap it tight around my hand before grabbing my keys to the bike off the stool in the corner. Driving the thing with one hand is an interesting experience and, eventually, I have to just force myself to ignore the pain or risk making shit a whole lot worse.
Needless to say, I'm pretty fucking irritated with everything by the time I make it to the hospital, my hand clutched crosswise against my chest as I storm down the hall.
"Hey, you got a doctor here?" I ask, stepping directly into the path of the nearest nurse I find.
It's a dumb question, I know it's a dumb question, but my shirt is soaked in blood and I'm really just not thinking too clearly at the moment.
The woman looks me over with narrowed eyes. Says, "We have many of them, miss. Is this an emergency?"
I guess it's nice to know I'm not the only one asking stupid questions.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I laugh, waving my bloody arm in her face. "No, I'm just here for a pre-natal check-up!"
Funny thing is, it's actually not the worst I've ever felt. Not by a long shot. No, that honor goes to the Capitol and their fucking electric wands or whatever the hell they are. This is nothing, really.
Except for the blood. There really is a lot of blood.
And with that comes a whole lot of memories I spend most of my time trying to forget. Forcing every grizzly image out of my mind, I pull my shirt off and wrap it tight around my hand before grabbing my keys to the bike off the stool in the corner. Driving the thing with one hand is an interesting experience and, eventually, I have to just force myself to ignore the pain or risk making shit a whole lot worse.
Needless to say, I'm pretty fucking irritated with everything by the time I make it to the hospital, my hand clutched crosswise against my chest as I storm down the hall.
"Hey, you got a doctor here?" I ask, stepping directly into the path of the nearest nurse I find.
It's a dumb question, I know it's a dumb question, but my shirt is soaked in blood and I'm really just not thinking too clearly at the moment.
The woman looks me over with narrowed eyes. Says, "We have many of them, miss. Is this an emergency?"
I guess it's nice to know I'm not the only one asking stupid questions.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I laugh, waving my bloody arm in her face. "No, I'm just here for a pre-natal check-up!"